Be Still and know that I AM GOD

When He teaches you things that you didn't see coming, it causes a bit of resistance at first, that didn't realize you were doing.

My heart's been broken many times. Mainly from silly boys. But in November 2010 my heart was broken for all the right reasons. No it wasn't because I got married for the 2nd time, but instead it was by visiting a country with some amazing people, watching God work in the lives of others, seeing poverty firsthand and then coming back to a country that is blessed beyond measure.

This moment stuck with me. The desire, the feeling, the emotion, the change, the love... it never went away. God placed in my heart a desire for missions that has since stuck with me each and every day. And that desire has allowed me to pursue my love for missions, my love for others and for carrying out the gospel not only in my very own hometown but in other countries as well. It is what inspired SendMeMissions, it is what inspires me to lead volunteers to serve (whether only 2 show up or 22), and it's what inspired me to help with this years international trip to Guatemala even though I knew I probably couldn't go.

So this time, for the first time, I'm sitting at my house... stalking Facebook, Instagram, Twitter... you name it. Watching "my little ducks" as they experience another culture, malnourished children,  fellowship with other Believers, poopy diapers, unforgettable sceneries, healing within their own lives, and the joy of serving. And all I can do from here is just keep praying!

And that's when I realized God is trying to teach me to Be Still and know that HE IS GOD. He's placed me exactly where I need to be. Because soon, very soon, we will be going to Uganda and we will be experiencing Him first hand as we adopt Eli and bring him into our lives forever. And others will be watching from home, stalking facebook and praying.

While I've been a little resistant and I've seriously considered purchasing my plane ticket out of Tampa, straight to Guatemala... I've got to be patient for what God has planned for me and my life.

SHINE LITTLE DUCKIES, SHINE!